Thursday, October 27, 2011

Day 30: What Changed This Month and What You Hope Will Happen Next Month

Welp...I started CrossFit this month and I absolutely love it!  It is hard not to be addicted to it.  I don't always want to go to my workouts but I never regret going.  I feel like my body has improved because of this program.

I have officially been teaching a month as well.  I still struggle with some things, but I am getting to where I need to be.  I have definitely grown.

I moved my records out of my single's branch.   Looks like I am going to be going to family ward for a few months.  I may try to attend the branch more next summer when I am on break.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Day 28: The Month You Were Happiest This Year and Why

I could no sooner pick the sweetest smelling rose...Every month this year has had its perks.

Monday, October 24, 2011

A Quote I Love!

If you are a young man of appropriate age and are not married, don’t waste time in idle pursuits. Get on with life and focus on getting married. Don’t just coast through this period of life. Young men, serve a worthy mission. Then make your highest priority finding a worthy, eternal companion. When you find you are developing an interest in a young woman, show her that you are an exceptional person that she would find interesting to know better. Take her to places that are worthwhile. Show some ingenuity. If you want to have a wonderful wife, you need to have her see you as a wonderful man and prospective husband.
Richard G. Scott
Ha!  I love this quote.  I have been on a few dates in my life and it seems like the young man usually shows me how lame or incompetent he is.  I could tell a few stories about the unusual boys (I don't think I can even call them men) I have went out with in my life.  If he can even trick me into thinking he is interesting then I may become interested in him..and who wouldn't want me to be interested in them?  But then again..maybe I am too superficial...I like to think I don't expect more out a guy than I expect out of myself.

Day 27: Talk About Your Siblings

Renee':  Renee is the little mother.  She is the oldest of all us children and definitively has a nurturing quality about her.  She is also probably one of the most opinionated of my siblings.  If you need something taken care of, Renee can get it done!  I can also honestly say that Renee' is a hard worker and a great mother as well.  She has so many great characteristics that make her an exceptional person.

Mike:  When I think of Mike I think of a level headed person.  He is really good at making business and financial decisions. This could come natural or it could be because of his secondary education.  Although I don't talk to Mike much, I know he loves his family.  I definitively believe family is important to him and that he would do anything for his siblings as long as they were doing the things they needed to be doing to help themselves.

Sandra: Sandra is the only person in my family who knows what it feels like to be me, meaning 27 and single.  She waited until she was 29 to get married and found the perfect person for her.  Sandra is kind and loving.  She can be very harshly honest and opinionated at times but I admire the fact that she isn't scared to tell you how she feels.  She really seems to be comfortable in her own skin.

James: I don't know if it is possible for someone not to like James.  He is such an easy going person.  I remember coveting his people skills when I was younger.  He is also very intelligent.  In high school he seemed to get all A's with little effort.  He is now in dental school and finishes next year.  Then, he will specialize.  He really is accomplished for his age.

Charity:  Charity is the baby of the family.  We love her and all seem to want to take care of her even though she is capable of taking care of herself.  She is a big optimist.  Like James, people are drawn to her smile and personality.  I love laughing and hanging out with Charity. 

All my siblings are great.  I feel like I can honestly say that my sisters are my best friends and I would rather hang out with them then lots of other people.  I also know that my brothers are some of the most amazing and caring men out there.  They all have very lucky spouses!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Day 26: Your Religious Beliefs

I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, the only true church on the face of the Earth today.  We have a prophet living on the Earth who guides and directs us.  I am a daughter of my Heavenly Father and He knows and loves me.  This means I have a divine heritage. I know that Jesus Christ came to this Earth and atoned for my sins.  I love him so much for doing so.  Although he atoned for my sins, I still must live my best life...for it is by faith and works that we are saved. Jesus Christ lives!  He was resurrected. I believe that the family unit is essential.  Families can be together forever!  I know that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ appeared to Joseph Smith and instructed him.  Because of this, the church was restored.  I know that the Book of Mormon is the word of God and should be studied as a companion to the Holy Bible.  When we study the teachings of our Savior we learn how to be like him and how to obtain true happiness. 

I am grateful that I was taught these principals as a young lady and as I have grown older I have been given the opportunity to study them out so I can know for myself.  I do not believe these things because my family believes them or they are the only teachings I have been exposed to.  I have searched out other religions and studied them looking for the best in each.  I have questioned my own beliefs.  Through this process I gained a testimony and came to realize the truthfulness of these beliefs.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Day 25: Ten Ways to Win Your Heart

1) Love my nieces and nephews
2) Be honest with me...but not harsh
3) Cuddle me
4) Make me laugh
5) Don't be scared to be goofy
6) Just listen to me when I talk...even if I am being crazy
7) Let me see you playing with kids
8) Smile
9) Be optimisitic
10) Be sincere

Friday, October 21, 2011

Day 24: Weird Things You Do When You Are Alone

I am always doing weird things.  Here are probably two of the weirdest things I do when I am alone:
1) Look in the mirror and alternate between sucking in my gut and sticking it out while saying, "Skinny Becky, Fat Becky."
2) If I am alone chances are I am not wearing clothes...TMI I know.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Day 23: Something You Wonder "What If" About

Oh the things I wonder "What if?" about!
1) What if I would have went to BYU-Idaho right out of high school?  I would have probably missed out on a lot of experiences I had as a paramedic and may not even be a teacher now...but I wonder what would have happened and what I would be doing with my life now if I would have just went.
2) What if I would have went to med school?  I miss the medical profession a lot and know I could have been a wonderful physician.  However, I would not have grown and learned the things I learned as I have progressed to become an educator.
3)What if I would have asked a boy out or if a boy would have liked me in return?  I wonder about past relationships and almost relationships.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Day 22: Ten Things About You People Dont' Expect

1) I'm can be extremely bold  or extremely shy depending on if I care what your opinion of me is.  Generally, I am shy at first and become more "me" the more comfortable I am around you.
2) I really don't enjoy eating meat that much.  It's not that I am a vegetarian but I prefer fruits, vegetables, and breads when I eat.
3) I feel like I am still discovering who I am.  Sometimes I wonder if I have let others mold me into who I am because I have such a strong desire to be liked and to please other people.
4) I am picky when it comes to choosing boys for me to like...but when I am secure in a relationship I fall way to fast.
5) I feel guilty when I am not productive.
6) I hate being alone (even sleeping alone) and don't think I could ever live by myself.  I would be scared the whole time.
7) I am not a risk taker at all.  I won't even let myself try to be someone's friend if I don't think they will return the gesture.  This could be because of my insecurities.
8) I will bridge jump and do other crazy things...but I don't think I would do them if I weren't trying to impress someone.
9) I wonder if I am really a "country girl" even though I was born and raised in the country.
10) One of my top fears is rejection.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Day 21: Something You Can't Seem To Get Over

This is a hard one.  I think there are a lot of things that "I can't seem to get over" but I put on a strong face and act like they don't bother me much at all by joking around and laughing about the things.  I want to make the best out of life and I know dwelling on things can drag me down.  I think the hardest things for me to get over are the "What ifs?" in life.  I haven't always make the best choices in my past and I wonder how my life would be different if I had made different choices.  But...if I dwell on the past I will miss out on the present.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Day 20: The Last Argument You Had

It is best to forgive and I try to forget arguments I have had and move on with my life.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Day 18: Disrespecting Parents

I got a little out of order...evidently I can't count.  Anyways I am backtracking to catch up.

I think it is tacky to disrespect one's parents.  It isn't worth it.  Love em and agree to disagree with them...but don't disrespect them.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Day 19: Something That Never Fails to Make You Feel Better

I know I am blogging Day 18 a few hours early...but I am bored.  Forgive me.
Is there just one thing that can make someone feel better?  Here is my 5 step remedy to days that convince you that live sucks:
1) Call up a close friend and talk.
2) Meet up with that friend and eat Ben and Jerry's (Phish Food) and drink Red Bulls and complain about how other people suck and discuss how amazing I am.  We also laugh a lot during this conversation as we turn the irritating situation into a joke.
3) If the issue is caused by a boy...find another boy to randomly hook up (ncmo) with...or at least getting some kind of physical affection...even if it is just cuddling with one of my guy friends (Is this messed up?)
4) Because I begin to feel guilty about eating so much food, I go to the gym and exercise out my frustration.
5) By this time I have forgotten why I was down and can get back to normal life.

Day 17: Things That Make You Scared

1) The Unknown:  The unknown is so scary.  I never pictured my life turning out the way it has.  Don't get me wrong...I like life but there are some things in life I would like to happen to me that just haven't happened to/for me yet.  Hopefully the things I want to happen will happen one day but if they don't, I will just keep on living every day to the fullest and taking advantage of everything I do have.
2) Snakes: The creepy and crawly!  I don't care to get close enough to one to see if it is poisonous.  Just the thought of a snake makes me cringe.
3) Creeping Obesity:  I remember a poster from my high school wellness class of a woman who gained a little weight each year.  She got bigger and bigger and...well you get the picture.  I want to be healthy and I often associate size with health. (Yes, I know this is superficial.)

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Day 15: The Best Thing That Happened to You This Week

My 15 month old nephew giving me loves and ignoring everyone else who wanted his attention.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Day 14: Something Disgusting to You

Here are the ones that I think are most common among society
1) Dirty dishes (I lived with people who delayed doing dishes...I even had one roommate who would let food rot and mold in her room on it's plate in it's bowl.)
2) A dirty house (Seriously...clean up after doesn't have to be spotless but keep it together.)
3) Smoking, drinking, and drugs (enough said)
4) Not taking care of yourself (e.g. poor hygiene)

I could probably think of a few more...but I don't want to sound like a pessimist. 

Monday, October 10, 2011

Day 13: A Date You Would Love To Go On

This is a hard one.  Are we talking about first dates or a date with someone you have been dating for a little while?  My favorite dates are the ones where you really get to know the person you are with better.  Just the other day I was walking in at Cyprus Grove, a nature park, and thought what an amazing date it would be just to walk and talk there.  However, if I had been dating someone for a while I think camping out together would be an ideal date.  I would get to see that person in a different light and dating is about getting to know the other person better.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Day 12: Things You Want to Say to an Ex

1) I don't hate please don't think I do.  Even though I think about you often and would love to have contact with you, I choose not to because I don't want to have to stop talking to you again when another wonderful man enters my life ( I feel like this is just a part of respecting him...even if he turns into an ex as well :)
2) Thank you for helping me improve myself.  I know that you helped me realize aspects of my life I can make better and pushed me to improve.
3) Thanks for not letting our relationship progress.  As I am sure you have already figured out I am probably the best girl you will ever even meet and get the privilege to date.  You lost out.  However, I know that their are guys better than you out there.  I am glad I didn't settle.  But none-the-less I hope you meet someone to share your happily ever after will just have to be taunted by the fact she isn't as amazing as me.

And finally...I will leave you with a song

Day 11: Your Current Relationship (or for all the losers out there talk about how being single is)

Welp...I am one of those losers who gets to discuss how being single is.

To me being single is bittersweet.  Because I am single I have all the time in the world to do what I want to do.  This is nice...except when I don't know what I want to do and feel guilty for being idle.  Then I wish I had somebody to do something with because I have a hard time motivating myself.  However, it is nice because I really have the time to get to know myself and evaluate where I am in life and the more I evaluate the more I realize why I am single.  I am emotionally closed off to people (I have trust issues in a cheater will do that to you, I have communication issues, and I have to become more self reliant.)  I really do believe that I am single for a reason and that reason is to find ways to improve myself and I continue to get to know myself.  So yes, I'll admit I wish I had a someone to cuddle up to at during movies and at night and I REALLY miss kissing (I must admit I think I am pretty good at cuddling and kissing).  But, I am learning to be okay without those things and embrace becoming the woman I want to be.

Friday, October 7, 2011

Day 10: Your View on Drugs and Alcohol

Don't do it!!!  I don't understand why anyone would want to alter their mental state on purpose.  It is just ignorant.  People seem to always do things they regret when under the influence of these chemicals.  While I am at it...Tobacco is Toxic as well.  Treat your body well it will do the same thing to you.  You don't need various chemicals to make you happy.  All you have to do is live your life to the fullest.  That's what I the dream.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Day 9: Your Last Kiss

Define kiss.  In another words, what type of kiss are we talking about?  My nieces and nephews give me lots of innocent kisses when I am around them.  However, something tells me that I should make this somewhat (you're not going to get much more out of me) more interesting than telling you about slobbery kisses from one-year-olds.  So, here we go (Well here is one I will fess up to anyways...I don't want anyone thinking I am a lip slut. Just remember there is a difference between being a lip slut and being easy.)

I would say my last kiss was in my car in Rexburg.  I was with a old "friend" (I am still unsure if we were just make-out buddies or dating...that shows what a bad communicator I am...but that is a whole different story.) and we had decided it was best not to be friends just a week earlier.  Anyways, I went to Rexburg to see another friend and of course ended up seeing this kid.  We had a fun weekend and of course ended up kissing more than we probably should have.  To make a long story short on my way back to Boise we decided not to be friends anymore and then I hit a dog on the interstate.   Life sucks sometimes but the important thing is that my life rocks right now...even if I haven't kissed a boy in a few weeks.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Day 8: Something You are Currently Worrying About

I have been teaching for almost three weeks now.  My biggest worry is that I am an inadequate teacher.  The students I am working with are a totally different breed than the ones I worked with while I was in school.  I feel like my classroom management is lacking and my lessons are missing something.  I want to do so much for my students and really have them ready to move on to third grade next year but it is hard when they have little support outside of the school.  Then I worry about their home lives.  I care about them a lot and want to make sure that they are being taken care of. 

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Day 7: Your Opinion on Cheating People

Oh the things I could say for this one...
As far as people that cheat in relationships: You're selfish and should probably grow up
As far as people cheating in school: Your grade won't help you in the "real world" after graduation
As far as people who cheat others by being unfair: What comes around goes around

Monday, October 3, 2011

Day Six: The Person You Like and Why You Like Them

Does this mean someone I have a crush on? Simply because, I currently do not have a crush on anyone. But there are some people in my life I like a lot! Here is my list:
My family:
They are painfully honest with me which irritates the crap out of me but I love them for being willing to risk hurting my feelings to help me become a better person.  It is also reassuring to know that they will always be there for me...regardless of what stupid things I do.

My Friends From School:
I miss my little group of friends.  I miss our movie nights and I miss cuddling with them as we star gazed on the dock at Beaver Dick. They didn't judge me when I was super awkward and they can make me laugh on my worst days.  I truly do love these friends.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Day 5: Five Things That Irritate You About The Opposite Sex

Why think of the negative?  Besides...the opposite sex hasn't annoyed me lately...maybe this is a post that should be blogged about after a guy upsets me over something so miniscule it won't matter in a week.