That moment when you have so much you want to write and blog about and have no clue how to put it all in words. I used to consider myself very fluent in professing my thoughts through writing. Now, I feel as if I am unable to adequately express my thoughts or feelings verbally or in writing.
With age, I have learned how to bridle my tongue when necessary. (Okay…maybe not every time but I think I have shown vast improvement.) However, I have also become more timid and no longer voice all the things I NEED to say. Often, my thoughts and dreams stay trapped because they are mine! They are no one else’s to criticize. Still, I wonder how many of my unspoken thoughts have needed to be heard.
Not that today’s words need to be read or need to be said, but I have been overfilled with gratitude today. I don’t know if it is the glorious spring weather that has brought this overwhelming feeling or if sitting in the solitude of my home has forced me to ponder. Regardless of what brought upon this sentimental gratitude, I feel inclined to share a few of the things I am grateful for.
1. My friends. I have the best friends a girl could ever ask for. They have all come into my life at a perfect time and give so much to me! They are always willing to give an encouraging word or listen to my silly rampages. I often assume that my feelings of gratitude and love for them are implied. Thus, I don’t verbally express how important and needed they truly are in my life. Each of my friends meets such different needs/demands in my life.
2. My Self Confidence: I was an awkward little monster growing up! It is almost painfully embarrassing to think of the horrible perms, the constantly runny nose, the garbled speech, and the lack of motor skills I had. You can imagine that it was difficult for me to feel really great about myself. It took a really long time but I am so glad that I have come to discover who I am. I feel like I am truly beginning to discover what I am truly capable of doing! Life is a crazy, scary ride for those who don’t know their place in this seemingly big world.
3. My Family: My family is an odd little family (well, maybe not little). Each one of my family members has their own quirks that drive the rest of us batty! Still, I can’t imagine another group of people I’d rather learn and grow from. They have shown me so much love and mercy throughout my life. Each has set and example for me.
I could go on and on about the things I am grateful for. I know I didn’t mention several things I am thankful for. Partially because I feel as if I have already gotten too wordy and partially because I feel like it should be implied that I am thankful for certain things. There you have it…my incomplete Sunday ramblings.