Sunday, May 9, 2010

I'll Take It

I only have a year left at BYU-Idaho. I will confess that I am stoked. Yet, my life hasn't turned out quite how I imagined it would. I even have a dream board full of dreams that were suppose to be coming true by this point in my life. I am almost 26 years old. Surely by this time in my life prince charming was supposed to have found me and we should be on our way to eternal bliss. Yet, here I am, single and wondering if this prince will ever come and find me. I remember a guy friend saying a while ago that he imagined finding a girl and being some sort of hero by saving her. I think some people view saving as some heroic act, yet it would be nice for a guy to come into my life and save me from myself. At times, I feel like I can be quite the narcissist and not even realize it. Yes, I'll admit, I want the whole marriage thing. I would like to find my best friend and spend everyday for eternity with him. (Or he could find me.) Still, I feel as if I have a ton of walls up and it will take a bulldozer to knock them down. Not only do I want a best friend to come home to, I want someone to cuddle whenever and to take care of and they take care of me. Growing up, I had three main qualities I'd like in a husband, and I am still sure I want just those three. The three are:
1) He makes me happy and can make me laugh.
2) He makes me want to be a better person.
3) He honors his priesthood.
Really, is that too much to ask for? (I will admit, each quality has subcategories, such as physical attraction and ambition.) I think if me and this person ever meet, it will be worth the wait, but it is super hard to be patient. One this person finds me (or I find him) I know eternities could never be enough time for me to spend with him. It will be fun growing in so many ways with this person. Until then though, I guess I'll just be "wishin and hopin and thinkin and dreamin each night of his charms."

1 comment:

Sandra said...

Oh Becky.....I don't even know where to start on all the things I want to say. The only person that can save you from you is you. And you don't need someone else to take care of you....though I'm sure it would be nice. Just keep wishin, and hopin, and thinkin and prayin.
Heavenly Father does have someone special for you. He just hasn't met you yet.