Tuesday, May 25, 2010

The 25th Year

It is hard to believe that my 25th year of life will be ending in less than 24 hours. I am mildly depressed that so much of my life has passed by and I haven't accomplished the things I feel as if I should have accomplished by now. I wonder what my self 10 years ago would have said if she could see me now. Would I be proud of myself or wonder where my life has went? Life is truly a growing experience. Although I don't feel like it, I am sure I have grown a lot over the past year. I finished another year of school and even had some fun along the way. Although I am not blessed enough to have a family of my own, I am blessed with a wonderful family and many beautiful nieces and nephews. I really do love kids. I struggle with the fact that I may not have the opportunity to become a mother (Although, I still feel it could happen.) It is a blessing to have Mike and Amy's kids near and to interact with kids at elementary schools. If I never have kids, I will be able to love my students as my own. Part of me believes I choose to major in Elementary Education so I could for sure always be around children. They are delightful...except when they're not.

My 26th year probably holds some pretty exciting adventures in it as well. It will be fun to face them. This is my last year in Idaho. I will not lie, I am excited to leave but I will miss Idaho a lot (not that I have a desire to stay here). I have grown a lot here and I feel like I have spent a lot of time here discovering myself. I don't know if we ever "really" know ourselves. We are constantly changing. As soon as we think we have it all figured out, we realize how clueless we are. I know I am starting to ramble, but I felt as if I needed to write one more blog as a 25 year old. Half my twenties are over! Goodbye 25 and welcome new experiences with 26.


Kara said...

happy bday we love you!

Robert and Charity said...

I sometimes wonder what I would think about myself 10 years ago...but really, the important thing is looking forward 10 years. The woman you will be in 10 years will be proud of who you are now and what you do. Dont look in the past, but toward the future :)

Renee and Jake said...

25 is still young....I think you have done plenty to be 25. And who knew, you liked kids?