Tuesday, January 6, 2009

A New Year

So I had the opportunity to go home and visit the family for Christmas. It was really great and I had a hard time coming back to Idaho. We laughed and enjoyed each others company so much. It was really like we were kids again. Now break is over and it is time to go on to my mundane schedule. I do have a New Year's Resolution this year and I have decided to share it with everyone. I said I didn't believe in resolutions and would rather make small achievable goals up throughout the year. I think I have come up with one big goal this year that is very attainable and that all my smaller goals will contribute to. For those of you who don't know, at times I feel like I am at a quarter life crises. I am almost twenty five years old, single, and in school. I never imagined that my life would be like this. I always thought that I would be married and finished with college at this point in my life. I guess this isn't what I always dreamed of but it is what I needed in my life. So my goal this year is to get to understand and know myself better. I really want to figure out what I want to do with my life and how to get to that point. Right now I am still wanting to go to nursing school but I have been considering doing pre-med. I know that I could do the whole pre-med thing and then med school but I also want to be a mom. I'll be honest, at this point in my life I want to be a mom more than anything else. That is hard for me to admit because I never saw myself willing to sacrifice so much for motherhood. My conflict is that I don't know if I should count on the fact that the opportunity for motherhood will come along for me. I have a lot of goals for my life and I hope I can obtain them all. The unknown petrifies me and it is hard for me to sit back and just see what is going to happen. I really feel like I am making good choices for my life right now though. So that is my resolution this year. Wish me luck as I continue my path to self discovery.
I am also posting some pics from my trip home. Enjoy


Renee and Jake said...

I think it is a great goal to discover ourselves. I enjoyed having the whole crew together again too and the ones that our now in our family that were not when we ere growing up. I am not going to tell you I understand your quarter life crisis because I do not but I will tell you I do not think life turns out for anyone like they thought it would. Luckily Heavenly Father knows the big picture. Love you.

Sandra said...

That's a great resolution. I know that I wouldn't be who I am today if I didn't experience all these things as "single". Life is tough, I hate when people are overly positive, but we are truly tougher. I had a great time playing. Lets rock out in 09.

Renee and Jake said...

By the way, i love the one of you and dad