A little about me...

(1) So what...I am a little, or maybe a lot, weird. I am not scared to pick my nose while driving through town, I unconsciously try to out sing the radio, I enjoy sleeping in as late as I can, sometimes I find myself crying (stinking Idaho does things to you) and I have no clue why I am crying, I really don't like studying and try to avoid it at all cost, and my favorite food groups are breads and fats. I have tons and tons of little "quirks." Some people judge because of them but I will never understand why. I know I am a little weird but I have no clue what "normal" is. I am very happy with the person I have become. I am not saying that I don't want to better myself but I am saying that everyone has their flaw. So next time you see a the girl in the middle of the dance floor dancing with no rhythm (that girl is probably me!) don't critique or judge her but go out and join the party!
(2) O.k so I am not as brave or strong as I want people to believe I am. I like the idea of having someone around that I think can protect me. I like being the girl. Sometimes I want to be able to scream during the scary movie without wondering if people will laugh at me being such a girl. I like the idea of having someone else kill the spider. I want to have someone who will hold me when I am scarred no matter what is scarring me. This might not always be over physical things but sometimes other things scare me to. I am scared of being a old lonely "dog lady", I am scared of failure, and the unknown truly petrifies me. I may try to make people believe that I am stronger than I really am but don't forget that deep down inside I am scared to death. I don't always know how to express that fear though.
(3) Sometimes all I really want is a little flattery and affection. I don't know who doesn't love flattery. Nothing makes you feel better than when someone compliments you. Whether they compliment your hair, clothes, or figure or if they tell you how pretty, smart, ambitious, or amazing you are. There is something about compliments that give you a natural high. I personally enjoy getting them and giving them. I'll even admit that I enjoy them so much that sometimes I even "fish for compliments." If I feel like I did something great I might ask for your opinion just so you can compliment my task. However, as much as I enjoy compliments, I also want the truth. Like I said earlier, I am a little weird so I might think my hair looks amazing when really it looks like I just got finish walking 209 miles in the desert! Please just be gentle when telling me the truth!
(4) Yes, sometimes I cry, get angry, or smile uncontrollably and I can't pinpoint why. When you ask me why I am crying or why I am angry and I don't answer it probably means that I really don't know why I am crying or upset and/or I think it is something too dumb to discuss anyways. Please don't bug me on the subject any more. Just because I don't want you asking me about why I am feeling that way doesn't mean I don't want your attention though. I like to be held and rocked when I am crying. It is comforting. I don't like when questions are asked about why I am crying. The person asking questions usually tries to solve the problem for me which will make me angry! I think I am capable enough to find solutions myself. It is the person who QUIETLY helps you as you work through your very own solutions that often helps the most. I know you may think that I am fickle and you're probably right even though I don't see it that way.
(5) I have dreams! I want to finish college and have a successful career. I want to fall in love! I want to be married in the temple. I want to find someone that is crazy enough to dance with me in the rain but also understands that sometimes I don't even want a rain drop to touch me! I want to be a mom and be able to swing my kids around in the air. I want to have home with a huge library. I want to travel the world. I want to jump out of a plane thousands of feet in the air and feel like a bird as I free fall. (I will have a parachute!) I want to swim with the fish and see the bottom of the ocean floor. I want to make a difference in the world. I know that I might not be able to make all these things happen (who can force prince charming to fall in love with them) but I know that if I put forth my best effort in life great things will happen to me and I will be happy.

Halloween

Halloween this year was kind of crazy. Mom got to come up to Idaho to spend time with all of us. She was initially suppose to help Mike and Amy pack up and get moved but Charity and I kind of kept her to ourselves. (Sorry Mike and Amy!) Mom and Mike were to leave for TN on Halloween and Amy and I were to head to Ogden so that she could fly to TN the following day. Because it was Halloween Amy wanted to make sure the kids got to go trick or treating. My dad wondered why they couldn't leave Idaho early and just stop at some random neighborhood on their way to TN. I guess men and women just think differently. Anyways, Charity had a costume that she gave me so I dressed up with the kids. We all went trick or treating at the mall. Little Elle even came! I was so excited to see her! I don't think she was as excited to see me though. Little stinker. After trick or treating at the mall we went to Mike's old neighborhood and went trick or treating. Seth is so practical. When the lights were out at someones house he would say, "I guess they went to bed." even if you could see where people were moving around inside and just had lights off so they didn't get trick or treaters. I think the hardest part of the night was seeing the kids go trick or treating at their old house. The people who are buying the house moved in on Halloween. After trick or treating I got to play with the kids at McDonald's for a while with was really fun. I really love those kids and I can't wait to see them in December. It will be a real treat seeing all my nieces and nephews! That was my Halloween. I can't complain...I wouldn't have chosen to spend it any other way!

Fall in Rexburg

Well there are a few things that I am excited about. The first thing I am way excited about is that it is fall which consequently leads the the next thing I am excited about. That being that my semester is half way finished. I went on a walk today and I couldn't help but notice how beautiful it was outside. The weather was perfect. It was warm with a nice breeze. I love the outdoors. I especially love lying on the grass and feeling the wind. I don't always love the wind especially when I spend a long time on my hair or if I am in a skirt that the wind can blow up and my arms are too full to hold it down! I walked up to the temple and just laid in the grass while I studied. It was so peaceful. On my way home I walked the the gardens on campus. They are so beautiful. The leaves are changing colors and falling from the trees. Many of the leaves are a fiery red. I love it. I also passed by a willow tree. I think willow trees are probably my favorite trees because they remind me of one that was in my Mamaw and Papaw's yard while I was growing up. I love them. Seeing the tree brought back many childhood memories. I think I could truly argue that fall is probably my favorite season!

Sweet Prayers

I recently heard a prayer offered by a very humble child. If I were to ever be faced with the challenges this child had to face I would probably be very bitter. As I watched this child get down on his knees and fold his arms I was already very humbled. How often do we actually get on our knees when we talk to our Heavenly Father? It is often easier to say, "I am tired I can say my prayers while lying down in bed." We forget that it is our Heavenly Father we need to thank for the opportunity we have to lie in a bed and allow our bodies to feel the comfort it offers after a long day. His prayer almost brought be to tears due to his sincerity and simplicity. One thing I noticed was that he didn't ask for Heavenly Father to change his situation he just expressed gratitude for several things in his life. Things that I though he should be bitter over! I am glad I got to hear that innocent prayer because it helped me to better understand what is is meant when we are commanded to become like little children. Often we overlook things that we should be grateful for and concentrate on what could be better in our lives. I think I am going to try to become more childlike and focus on the things I have and try to forget about our things could be better. I will still try to constantly improve myself but I am not going to focus on the negative. I should indeed be grateful for all the blessings Heavenly Father has abundantly poured upon me and continues to pour upon me. I think being childlike is really the key to happiness. How many of us can look back at when we were children and say we were miserable. When I look back at when I was younger I see a girl who enjoyed the simple things in life and didn't need a new car, a fancy piece of jewelry, and ipod, etc to make her happy. I just needed the simple things like five extra minutes to play with puppies as they licked my face and I felt wind blowing through my hair. It was the simple things like sleep overs with my sisters under "tents" we built using sheets, encyclopedias, and vents blowing up cool air that brought smiles to my face! If we can remember how to let the simple things in life bring us happiness once again our lives will be filled with incomprehensible joy. After all, "Life is to enjoyed, not just endured."

Soldier

So last spring Sandra got a build a bear. I absolutely love him to death. To be honest I sleep with him every night and he is my cuddle buddy. His name is Soldier. Soldier has puppy underwear, pajamas (cat in the hat boxers), beach attire (including sunglasses), a flag, shoes, and a tux. Today I decided to change his clothes into a tux that Renee bought for him over the summer. I put on the sunglasses with the tux and thought that he looked pretty handsome so I took some pictures. Sandra, Charity, Ginny, and Aubree also have a build a bear too. All of our bears have different outfits and accessories and we have each given our bears very distinct personalities. I think Sandra and I have the only boy bears. Charity's, Ginny's, and Aubree's are all girls. If you are wondering my Solider is way more handsome that Sandra's! Anyways here is a pic of him in his tux. (Renee', you can tell Ginny that he is ready to take Dorothy out!)

Back to School

So I have officially become a student again. It has only been a week and I have no clue how I survived being a student ever. School is hard! I am only in two classes this fall but they both demand a lot of time. My hardest class is anatomy. I am learning a ton but my brain hurts so much after every class! I moved in my apartment a week ago and I think it is kind of cute. My room has more space than I thought it did. It is kind of weird adjusting to roommates and what not but I like I said I am adjusting. I am really glad to be here at BYU-I on this amazing campus. I love the fact that we pray before class. The spirit is really strong here. I received my calling in my ward (it is hard for me to say ward after being in a branch for a year) and I am curious to see how it plays out. I will probably blog about it once I am sustained. That is my life in a nutshell. I am staying busy and learning tons!

My Week

The crowd at the concert

Jack Johnson

This has been an incredibly amazing week for me.  On Sunday I left for Utah and spent the night in Logan.  Then on Monday I headed to Salt Lake City for a Jack Johnson concert!  He is such an amazing artist.  I really enjoyed just laying on the lawn and soaking up the sunshine before the concert began. It was a real mellow concert and I enjoyed it a ton.  When I got home on Tuesday I had an acceptance e-mail from BYU-I.  So Wednesday I spent most of my day up in Rexburg trying to figure things out.  I am still working on a lot of things but I did register for some night classes.  I had to petition to move up there early and I haven't heard if it was approved or not.  I am also waiting to hear back about student loans.  It is hard to believe things are happening so fast but I am glad they are.  Anyways I will keep everyone posted!  Wish me luck!